Selleks et midagi saada on vaja küsida. Ahhaaa, no ma siis küsin:

I want my stuff to be realized, by me!

Küsitakse

kuhu ma kadunud olen? Tegelt ei ole kadunud, kui võtta lahti nt minu poolt Kulkale või EFIle laekunud taotlused, siis olen vähemalt ühe etenduse,  filmi või raamatu aastas sahtlisse kirjutanud ja nii viimased 7 aastat.

You have destroyed me.
Like you do with all the wonderful things on this planet...nature, animals. Bulldozing over this land like you own it, like you have created it. Shitting on living creatures like they're garbage, disposable, replaceable.
Ruled by your greed you call, your " birth right"," freedom" or whatever term that suits your BODY today.
Look at me. This is me disappointed.
DIS-APPOINTED

Good luck,
and good bye.

wrong beyond repair

aga...

Osta ooper!

Mõtsin just hea uusaasta lubaduse

Kas saaks see aasta nii, et keegi ei hala ega hädalda.

Olgu

Head uut aastat, hakkame tööle, lots of work to do.

My dog Doug and I were looking down on a line of ants like we were dogs
They seemed to be so strong, so preoccupied, and man, so busy
"A little bit like you," said Doug

"Like when was the last time you looked up at the stars
And realized how small and narrowly focused you really are?"

So I asked him,

"Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?"

Then Doug bent down and licked up those ants

Leaving a river of spit for the others to contend with

Those others, they just marched around without even a pause

As if nothing at all had happened

Doug swallowed and said "Hey, that's funny

They don't taste at all like my food

Since that's all they've been eating

You'd certainly think that they would"

"Yeah, you'd think that they would" I agreed,

You'd certainly think that they would

So I asked him,

"Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?"

Then later as we drove together on over the 405

I saw out on the horizon this line of tiny cars

From Trader Joe's downtown they stretched all the way into the hills

And I said to Doug "Now ain't that funny

What does that remind you of?

Isn't it just like those ants
Going from your dog bowl into their ant hill?"

Doug said "Yeah maybe, but that's not funny

You missed one thing entirely

You see, at least those ants
They're not putting a hole in the ozone layer."

So I asked him,

"Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?

Is that why dogs howl at the moon?"

Merry Christmas

Sööklas

Kui üks inimene räägib, siis ta peab kõnet, tal on midagi öelda. Ma ei saa aru miks kõik räägivad, kirjutavad midagi avaldavad arvamust. Kust see kõik tulnud on! Kõik on järsku mingid ajakirjanikud kõigil on kuidagi jäänud mulje, et neil on midagi öelda. Kui kõik korraga räägivad on see müra. Kuula. Nagu oleks sööklas.
(Aaa see Sõnavabadus. Nüüd kui need ajakirjanikud maha kõmmutati on see kohe suur teema. (Nad peaksid Darwini auhinna saama. Nad vastavad kõigile nõuetele: eemaldasid end ise geneetilisest baasist ,olid täiesti terve mõistuse juures täiskasvanud inimesed...)

Kõik tekstid on lihtsalt ajakirjandus, arvamusartiklid...

Kust teile on üldse jäänud mulje,et kedagi huvitab teie arvamus???
 Või see, et tekst ei pea omama mingit väärtust??
 Iga teine on raamatu kirjutanud või agar blogimajandaja. Kust teile on jäänud mulje,et tekstil ei pea olema kvaliteet?
Saate aru, et kui te kõik korraga räägite ei kuula teid mitte keegi, te muutute lihtsalt müraks, suvaline  turupalagan.
Ja siis te ronite  lavale,teie kellel pole mitte midagi öelda. Ja jällegi sellepärast, et teil on see vabadus seda teha, ja kuna kõik seda teevad on standardid nii madalale lastud.
Muidugi võite ka ajaloo kaela selle ajada: a la  "eestlane, vana orjatahvas, on nüüd lõpuks saanud vabaduse osaliseks ja kõik otsivad viise kuidas "ennast väljendada". "???
Ma lihtsalt kardan, et olete sellest eneseväljenduse teemast natuke valesti aru saanud. On kaks eneseväljendust:  üks on endale, teine on teistele. St kui sa räägid, siis sul on midagi öelda teisele, kui sa tahad aga midagi väljendada siis võid teha midagi üksi, ükskõik mida...magada, lilli kasta, joonistada, reisida.
Võib olla see kõik on vastuolus sellega, et ma siin räägin. Samas ma ei ole ju tegelikult siin ja ma ei roni ka lavale.
Mõtlen,et praegusel ajal on ainuke protesti moodus olla lihtsalt vait, teha mitte  midagi, sest kõik lihtsalt sebivad ringi. Olla vait ja haihtuda.

Kuidas elada

jäin mõtlema. öeldakse,  et  elu on liiga lühike et teha valesid valikuid, või noh et mitte elada nii nagu tahad. Samas tegelt on loogiline pigem nii, et  elu on liiga pikk, et seda mitte elada nii nagu tahad. Nii kaua elada ja veel valesti! saate mu loogikast aru?

Ja siis see küsimus:
Miks ma ei võiks elada nii nagu ma tahan?

Fakk ma ei tea. Need reeglid tulevad kuskilt, mina neid ei tee... ju teevad neid teised. Ma ei tea, samas see pole ka loogiline elada enda elu teiste inimeste reeglite järgi.
Kuidas siis elada, kui enda plaanid teistele ei sobi???
Ma ei tea. Kunagi teadsin. Siis ma ei saanud aru, et ma elasin teiste reeglite järgi. Arvasin et teen, mis tahan...või siis nüüdseks on tara nii koomale tõmmatud, et ma saan seda varsti käega katsuda.
Aaaaa tuli meelde: teistele ei tohi kannatusi põhjustada ja jaa sellepärast ei saa oma elu elada. Samas miks need teised ennast kannatama panevad, fakin väikses kastis elades. Nagu need kanad suurtes angaarides 40 tuhat korraga, pole ruumi et ringi keeratagi. Maha ei tohi  ka istuda sest siis teised talluvad surnuks. Põllul on ju palju parem joosta kõigil. Suurem aedik palju ruumi, õhk!!
Või see ei eruta enam kedagi, tahaks et ikka oleks sita hais ja heitegaasid ümberringi. Tehase toodang. Ja siis lasemegi ennast kasvatada nagu kanu tehases. Liinil. Masin lükkab tibud sisse, siis söödetakse mingit paska sisse, et topeltkiirusel suureks kasvaks.  Ja hea on kui kondid järgi ei jõua, siis ei teki mõtetki ära joosta ja seda suurt pekist keha trimmi joosta. Ei ei. Seisa paigal ja oota järgmist masinat, mis su ära nülib ja piinad lõpetab. Seep see on tänapäeva elumõte. süüa ja kannatada ja liinitöö.
Nojah siis.

TELLISIN TELEFONI

I ordered a phone from China. I have ordered before, but never with DHL like this time. 3-5 days delivery yeee. It's been 3 weeks since then. No I'm not complaining I just love the letters I receive from the seller. They keep getting better!

1.

Order Track

To Me

Mar 14 at 2:00 PM

hi,dear 

thanks for your order from geekbuying, here we inform you that your package  is still  in HK DHL warehouse now ,as recently  Chinese government  is having the National People's Congress and China's Political Consultative Conference meeting. To each country , such Conference  is the most important thing, so

 the custom officer in HK are so strict with all the packages for exportation, they block and check one by one for the safety check affair.  we have pushed the shipping company to speed up.

we are so sorry for  the inconvenience , to extends our apology ,  here is the coupon code : XXXXX (5usd ) which you can use in the order over than  100usd.

so pls wait patiently for another 24-48 hours , and we are also taking good care of your order.

Any problem, feel free contact with us. 

Amy

2.

Order Track

To Me

Today at 1:45 PM

hi,dear sir 

Thank you so much for your support to geekbuying

we are really sorry to inform you that we got the news from the Hk custom that there are  still nearly 2000 packages are waiting for the scanning and hand over to the flight,  because recently here was one airplane caught fire when laned in USA airport, so the HK custom is checking the parcel one by one to block the built in battery item.

As to the situation, we have urged the shipping company DHL to speed up and we have also handed in the papers for legal exportation, they  promised us that in the next 2 days , all the package in HK  custom will be on flight!

so pls wait patient , on Thursday, you will see your package is flying to you

any problem, feel fee contact with us. 

Amy

"Bottomless wonders spring from simple rules... repeated without end"
Benoit Mandelbrot

tervitus

2 head ja uut muusikat vahelduseks

The point is

From a sustainability standpoint, the human race must consciously continue to observe its thoughts, actions and judgments and what the consequences are if we ignore, disrespect and disregard our home and our role in it. We can easily justify following our dogmatic pursuits for clean air, food, and water, justice, freedom and expression. We can bring rituals and ceremonies into our lives to nourish our own inner resilience so that we cultivate new patterns and wavelengths that most serve the planet, too. And we are also aware that perhaps… none of it really matters. Perhaps it is egotistical to think we have already broken the confines of our egos and our judgment while still pushing our beliefs on others. Perhaps thepostculture will be just as insistent about its tenets as in societies past. Maybe we do need to constantly build a new world and burn it down as Burning Man proposes.  The point is, the moment we insist on anything, we lose sight of virtually everything else.

http://www.realitysandwich.com/last_temptation_dogma_ironic_tale_fundamentalism

Perceiving

Perception presupposes a subject that perceives and an object that is perceived. In human relations the subject that perceives is the individual human being, more exactly his consciousness, and the object perceived is the outer material world.

It is of the greatest importance to be aware of the fundamental fact that the outer world consists objectively of nothing more than matter and energy.

In order to make conspicuous the mechanism of our experiencing reality, I have chosen a metaphor from television. The material world functions as transmitter, emanates optical, acoustical, gustatory, olfactory, and tactile signals that are received by the antennae, by our sensory organs, eyes, ears, tongue, nose, and skin and are conducted from there to the corresponding center in the brain to the receiver. There these energetic and material signals are transformed into the spiritual phenomena of seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling, and touching. One does not know how this transformation of material and energetic impulses into the psychic dimension of perception takes place. It includes the mystery of the connection between the material and the spiritual world.

Consciousness defies a scientific definition and explanation; for it is what is needed to contemplate what consciousness is. It can only be circumscribed as being the receptive and creative center of the spiritual ego, which has the faculties of perceiving, thinking, and feeling, and which is the seat of memory.

It is of fundamental importance to be aware of how consciousness originates and develops.

The newborn human possesses solely the faculty of perceiving -- possesses, or more correctly, is this mystic nucleus of life. He owns -- to use again the metaphor of television -- a blank videocassette, where the incoming stimuli from the outer world are transformed into images and sensations that can then be stored in the memory, providing the groundwork for thinking. Without these signals from outside, no consciousness could develop.

There is common consent that the evolution of mankind is paralleled by the increase and expansion of consciousness. From the described process of how consciousness originates and develops, it becomes evident that its growth depends on its faculty of perception.

+

Fundamentalismist

http://www.realitysandwich.com/last_temptation_dogma_ironic_tale_fundamentalism

........ the Moscow research group proved that damaged chromosomes (such as those harmed by x-rays) can be repaired. Their method was to capture the information patterns of particular DNA and then transmit these patterns, using focused light frequencies, onto another genome as a way of reprogramming the cells. In this way they successfully transformed frog embryos to salamander embryos simply by transmitting the DNA information patterns. Garjajev's research shows that certain frequency patterns can be "beamed" (such as with a laser) to transfer genetic information. This shows how DNA operates through resonance and vibratory frequencies. It also shows that human DNA can be modified -- or altered -- through the impact of external frequencies. This may also help to go some way toward validating the existence of such phenomena as remote acts of healing and other psychic attributes. It also suggests that DNA is a living, fluid, and dynamic "language" that as a quantum informational field is responsive not only to laser waves (as in the above experiment) but also EM waves and sound, given that the correct frequencies are applied. 

Läbi

raskuste tähtede poole...uute raskuste poole ju tegelt, sa ei arva???

What were you thinking?

What is thinking? It seems to be a place where we have our own council. We consider words, experiences, pictures, feelings and discussions. We make our mind up about this and then either speak the words we have come to as a conclusion or act out our conclusion. The actual creation process though happens in the mind as thought. When we have used these thoughts enough, and it becomes automatic, it ends up as part of our identity. Our identity is our unique characteristic we will call eventually our personality. Our Personality is the part of ourselves we normally accept and state that cannot be changed. That is strange. If we can understand how we created something, we are able to change this.

What is the point? It seems that the words indicate that the soul is thought. The nature of thought then is the Nature of Soul and the Nature of Personality. That does not indicate much worth while for the hereafter when we return to the soul apparently.

http://desteni.org/a/bernard-poolman-what-were-you-thinking

Põgenemine

You can help the world. You, you, you, you, and you -- all of you -- can help the world. You know what the problems are. You know the difficulties. Let us do something. Let us not chicken out. Let us actually do it properly. Please, please, please! --Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche


Religioonid koos kõigi oma tseremooniatega, kõik selleks et põgeneda reaalsusest ning õigustada puudujääke.
Ka film -põgenemine illusiooni, sama + usu maitse saavad suhu ka need, kes ennast ateistiks kutsuvad.
Teater - sama, ehk boonuseks filmi kõrval, et näitlejad saavad põgeneda mitmeid kordi kellegi teise rolli.
Liberaalne ühiskond kõneleb: ole SINA ise, ole see kes sa oled, nii paks nii pikk nii tark nii loll ükskõik - kõigil on võimalus läbi lüüa - justkui tingimusteta armastus - armastan sind sellisena nagu oled....see on ju järjekordne põgenemine, järjekordne vabandus olla see, kes sa oled ja mitte midagi muuta.
Mis kasu sellest tingimusteta armastusest on, ükski tõeline sõber ei jäta sind kusagile auku virelema " oh, ma armastan sind sellisena nagu sa oled , ma armastan sind ka seal augus..." Ei tõeline sõber toob välja, mitte ei vaata pealt.
Aga ära ole selline nagu oled, ära otsi halbusele õigustusi mujalt, kui endast - ole kordki  siin ja praegu...maa peal...


Kõiki põgenemisteid ühendavaks lüliks on rituaalid - selleks, et inimene suhtuks neisse tõsiselt. Kui ikka 1000 munka kooris "Ommmmmm" leelotavad - noh kes see julgeks vastu vaielda. Preester tiirleb ümber veeküna viirukiviibutuste saatel  ja pobiseb ladinakeelseid sõnu, tema tagalat kaitseb tuhanded  aastad religiooni ja miljoneid järgijaid... ajalugu ei saa ju eksida, kõik need inimesed ei saa ju eksida? Kuidas ma siis uskumata jätan?!! Samas see sama ajalugu, need samad religioonid on näidanud, et see ei tööta: nt kasvõi Tiibet - sõda  käib, inimesed panevad ennast keset tänavat põlema, rahu on ainult kloostrites - aastatuhandete pikkune meditatsioon ei ole toonud tulemusi, sest see on põgenemine, see on kookon.
Selleks, et meditatsioon reaalselt tulemusi annaks on vaja enne maine elu korda saada - tõesta oma osavust nö. alg tasemel, siis  saab edasi liikuda.

Ja mul ei ole midagi meelelahutuse vastu, film teater kõik on tore, lihtsalt kui sealt kinost või kirikust tulete lülitage ennast jälle sisse, ok?
Kui vaatad  telerist uudiseid: teadmisega kaasneb vastutus - need inimesed, kes kannatavad nemad ei ole fiktsioon. Neid ei aita ükski jumal, ega ükski sharitud pilt facebookis.
Päris maailm = päris teod.
Kui filmis süüakse, sina kõhtu täis ei saa.

Aitab küll - ärgem jäägem igaveseks "loopima" (ingl.k "to loop")- põgenemise ja selle tagajärgede küüsi. Tingimusteta armastus on vabandus, tõeline sõprus on tegu. Prooviks kordki maa peale tagasi tulla ja näha, et kõik sinu teod puudutavad teisi ning mitte süüdistada kedaiganes... valitsust, jumalat, režissööri, ülemust, vanemaid. Ära sina sõdur mine tapma, kui ei taha, et inimesed surevad. Ära sina paks söö ära teiste sööki. Ära täida käsku, kui see teeb kellelegi haiget.



Viimasel ajal on väga populaarseks saanud new age liikumise rakukesed - räägitakse vaimude inglite tulnukate kristallidega jne. jne. Tore. Ütlen vaid ühte: need, kelle teadvus on võimeline  seda kõike hoomama, teavad, et neile, kelle teadvus selleks valmis ei ole, ei ole mõtet sellest rääkida - see on nagu pimedatele värvide seletamine või järjekordne fiktsioon. Kes teavad on vait.


Meie ühiskonnas on üsna populaarne idee, et nii nagu mõtled nii on : sa võid endale sisendada, mõtle positiivselt, kõik on hea, ma olen hea, ma olen armastus bla bla...kuid, kui sellele ei ole reaalset põhja all ei hakka see iialgi tööle, see muutub järjekordseks enese eksitamiseks.
Mitte ükski asi ei saa töötada, kui ta põhineb valel. Kui sul ei ole kõik reaalselt hästi, siis sa lihtsalt kaevad endale auku sellega, viidad aega halva maha surumisega ja selle ignoreerimisega - mitte ükski asi ei muutu olematuks, kui seda vältida.
Pealegi, kas pole "šamaan olemine" amet nagu iga teinegi?

Tule maa peale, taevas ei tule sulle appi, ise tuled endale.

12.nda tasandi filmid - refleshing the films

Everything that we have today was at one time or another considered an impossible thing to create. We’ve only just begun skimming the surface of what film is: therefore we are responsible for re-determining the levels in which we can cover in a film. Basing the fact that we are born upon visuals, the easiest way to learn is to actually see it. Almost everything that I know is gathered from a film, I didn’t start reading until I was 15. So capturing something as pure as human character; I see no greater achievement. If the performers are capable of exposing themselves into real, unscripted, change seeking mirrors for an audience, perhaps we can eliminate the damage of walking advertisements and gradually annihilate the plastic icon. We suffocate on endless forms of distractions that subliminally embed the idea that Self is imperfect without man-made design. We must begin at the beginning and re-flesh completely; by giving a new generation portraits of real characters living within their so called flaws. How can we improve if our children are influenced by their self loathing parents who despise authority, hate their jobs, their wives, their husbands, their families? The children are growing up malnourished in this plastic age. Our doctors are capable of replacing parts and adjusting presentation. This world will soon be a landfill of prosthesis, silicone, and metal. We will be remembered as an age that transformed itself beyond recognition--- that is if we keep buying into the shams. Give us realism that inspires change, growth, and understanding. Question everything. The Bends of Formation is preservation by means of augmentation; we survive exposed. Let’s get naked. Joriah Goad